God, sometimes I feel like the writer of Ecc. I go to school and work, and cant seem to find a solid driving motivation to put so much effort into school. I lose the drive I need to do these stupid assignments. The only worthy cause I find is that I've always been told that you want the best from us, and that by doing well in school somehow we are praising you. But I never feel that way about my classes. In truth, I go to school to get a good degree to get a good job to get a good salary to provide a rich spoiled life for me and my familiy. So in reality, I am going to school to get money. It is just an investment.

God I know you are in controll, and you have me where you want me, but sometimes I just don't see the point of the little things. Am I spending too much time and toil over individual homework assignments? I feel like I am. I feel like there has to be more to do and spend effort on than stupid classes that I am going to forget the next semester. Classes that I probably will never use for the rest of my life.

God grant me a purpose. Grant me a drive to finish. Give me and Cat direction as to where we need to be in the coming years. And above all would you please change us to be your tools. Use us in your service so that this life wont be all about grades and tests.