God calls very few to be martyrs, but calls all to be radically sold out for Him. "If any one would follow after me he must deny himself, take up his cross, and die. " Mark 8:34 God, what will is cost me to follow you? Why is it that I find it so hard to let go? How can I find the strength to let you guide my life? Sometimes I feel that if you would show me your power and let me see your miracles, then I would trust. I know this is wrong but it is natural. I feel like I have so much to lose. So much to miss. God change my heart. Show me the fulfillment that gaining you brings. Let it cause all else to pale away and look non-important. God, I have this plan and I don't want to let go. Where will you take me? What will I have to go without? Teach me the comforts of this life are not important.